A Love Letter to Nintendo…

Game On

I understand there is a very popular philosophy these days that says electronics and video games are evil and that Nintendo and wii are ruining today’s youth. Yeah, I don’t always agree but I get it. I personaly wonder if the grown-up-blame-throwers ever calculate how many hours they themselves spend in front of screens texting, Facebooking, and all day binge watching multi seasons of television shows . Kids are no different than adults, in my opinion, their screens are just smaller.

But…here’s the thing…

I seriously need to send Nintendo a thank you note. No, really, a ginormous thank you.

For years, nearly a decade, my boy and I have battled over electronics.  My wanting him to get outside and play and him wanting to stay in the cool house and play Nintendo and wii.  Don’t worry, I always win because, as the adult, I can confiscate the electronics.  But, after many years, you get tired of having to force the child to go outside.  It gets tiring to always be the bad guy, always being the one to take the electronics away or severely limit them.  After a while, you’d like to not fight about electronics.

And that is why I am writing today.  I honestly need to thank Nintendo for bringing a new found peace to my home and to my parenting game.

It appears, in a crazy turn of events, that Nintendo’s games, Sonic Generations and Street Pass, actually require “play coins”. Play coins!! And do you know how you get “play coins?” You have to play!!! Yeah, after my glue-the-face-to-the-screen-while-sitting-on-the-couch boy went outside to “scooter” in the SUNSHINE for half an hour on three different occasions, I asked him what was going on. Not that it bothered me but, after years of couch sitting and mom having to force the outdoor play, I will admit it confused me.  So, like I said, I asked him what he was doing.

My boy then informed me, “I’m scootering to get play coins.”

Thank you, Nintendo.

Sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. You didn’t have to write that into your game program but parents everywhere are thankful <3. There IS method to the madness <3.
Sparkle On, my friends ❤

The Upside of The Anxieties

I will admit anxieties and insecurities are mostly bad.  They are not good character traits, they are not helpful, they do not make my day better and yet, the reality it, they live in me and they move me.  They are part of my day-to-day and while most of the time they do not paralyze me, they do have a way of steering my choices.

I know this is a reality, I accept that I am not free of them and, in general, I have overcompensated enough with friendliness to keep them from completely overtaking my life and leaving me a crumpled mess under the quilts on my bed.  I will not hide from the world in complete retreat but I have found ways to tweak my existence so that the anxieties and insecurities in me can find a way to coexist in my life.

That is almost entirely why I run in the dark.

In case you didn’t know (because you sleep through the darkness until morning light)  the world is not awake during those darker hours.  A few scattered souls appear during my dark walking/running hours but I will emphasize it is very few.  I see a few lights on in kitchens and a few trucks on the road but, mostly, it’s just me, the cats and the frogs outside on the road.  I am used to it, I like the quiet and I am quickly discovering there is an entire world of animals that enjoy a whole lot of excitement during the dark hours of morning when all the people are gone.

Today, my anxieties and those animals kind of collided and, in a surprising turn of events, the anxieties and insecurities paid off in spades!  Surprising, I know, but it really can happen that way.

I am used to the cats about the neighborhood.  They used to scatter when they heard me hobbling about on my morning walk.  In their defense, I can only imagine how scary I look and how terrifying I sound as I scuffle and gasp.  Recently they seem to have come to accept that I may be an over sized animal of sorts and, happily, they no longer scatter when they hear me coming.  I used to take it personally that I scared them all.  Now they continue their naps on the sidewalk, they sit and watch me go by and there is one black one that will even come out into the street to say hello.

Today, as I was running by a familiar corner, I was startled when I heard a rustle in the bushes.

Noises, at 5 a.m. and in the dark, always get my attention.  I may like that early morning, cover of darkness for running but, for safety reasons, noises just freak me right out.  I was relieved when I saw the fluffy Siamese that lives on the next corner walk out and stand in the grass.  He did not immediately run away  and that made me smile.  I stopped my forward motion, jogged in place for a moment and said hello to the neighborhood cat from the road.  I appreciated that he no longer ran from me and I wanted him to know.  I stood there talking to the cat and jogging in place and then this crazy thing happened.

My eyes began to focus.

I was less than two minutes into my run and just eight houses away from my own home when my aging and fuzzy eyes began to focus a bit more.  As I stood talking to the Siamese cat, I realized it wasn’t a cat at all. It was a fox!

Wowza….I continued to talk to him and he continued to listen and we both just stared.  It was a HOOT.  He was fresh, fluffy and really quite pretty and I realized, my insecurities and anxieties brought me to him.  Had I been “all that”, secure and completely confident, I would never have been upright at such an hour and would never have been privy to such wonder.

My dark hours serve an obvious purpose in that they let my jiggle and struggle and gasp hide under the cover of darkness so that, thankfully, I am hardly noticed.  Yes, I struggle, yes I am imperfection personified, yes I am a lousy runner but, despite all the imperfections, goodness reared its head and shared with me a truly cool moment.  Now, had I been younger and had my eyes still lived with better vision, I might have enjoyed the moment for longer but, because of my fading eyes, I had a WOWZA moment that perfect and immediate focus would not have allowed me to experience.  Life is good.  The good and the not so perfect all mingle together for goodness and I loved my little fox.

With eight more houses left in my running goal and two and a half more miles to walk, I said good bye to the little guy and stumbled back into a sort-of-run that seemed a lot like my animated walk.  It occurred to me as I got my slow pace back that a big smile and renewed spirit sure can help boost your pace.  I ended up counting twenty two houses straight that I ran past this morning without walking.  It was more houses than I had set for my goal and, with the smile plastered across my face, I hardly felt it.

If the fox is out tomorrow, I think I could even run thirty houses straight!  Who knows?  Inspiration can do crazy things :).