Today, I was in the drop off line.
The drop off line, my friends. THAT place that was once both coveted and dreaded.
Sounds simple, right? Yeah, I know…and it even sounds trite but, if you haven’t been the parent in the drop off line before, it can actually sound like winning the super bowl.
Once upon a time, for our kindergarten year and into first grade, I voluntarily stayed on campus the entire day….just in case his inevitable melt down was bigger than the teacher could handle. Once upon a time, in second grade, I walked him into class and gave a very elaborate update to the teacher and they honestly had to peel me out of the class because my anxiety toward his impending melt downs felt like an overwhelming helplessness. Once upon a time, the level of the melt in the melt-down made me reticent to leave my boy at school at all. Once upon a time, after the majority of our melt downs were gone, I still arrived at school forty five minutes before it was over, just to make sure I was the first car in line so he could easily locate me at pick up time.
It’s been a long road full of highs and lows but, my friends, times change. Thankfully, my goodness, times change.
Today, I was in the drop off line and then I was in the pick up line at my spectrum kiddo’s middle school. Today, as my eighth grader walked independently and alone down the line of cars to the fourteenth car, to me, parked in the generic line of cars, I won the Super Bowl. I did. I really, really did. There will be no amount of money won, no carat of diamond rings exchanged, no trips to Disney on this upcoming Sunday afternoon that will equal the value of what my boy accomplished today in the drop off line. Today, Wonder Souls, I won the Superbowl…no matter who wins on Sunday this victory sweetly belongs to my boy.
The only thing I am sure about on this autism spectrum journey is that autism changes.
Autism changes, it grows, it moves. I promise.
So don’t panic if you aren’t where you want to be today. Just take a deep breath, keep working hard and, dear Wonder Souls, Sparkle On indeed.